Today turned out to be so wonderful despite the fact that I thought it was going to be otherwise considering that I almost OD'd on self-produced adrenaline running around at work, sifting through paperwork in galactic volumes, beating deadlines hour after hour after hour that could have been more of an orchestrated torture scheme set out to get me by clockwork. It was literally dizzying and I almost fainted twice, I tell yah.
Of course, it's a special day for the hubs and me and nothing could ruin that!
Plus this glass of Pinot Noir that washed down all the ugly crumbs of the day, reading a new title in my Kindle, trying out our new electric shiatsu back massager...
The list of good stuff goes on.
Life is good.
It makes me cringe at the stuff I've written here about certain characters a few weeks back. Doesn't that happen to you too? Embarrassed of your own words unleashed at the peak of emotional turmoil?
Can't take them all back now. And I won't, by virtue of principles. If there is anything I learned in life, it is to have a spine and make a stand...rather than go down from your battles by not saying anything at all.
But, it's all good now. The facts haven't changed (sadly) but my feelings and opinions have definitely transcended.
From this day forward, I will not listen to what I hear around no matter how they forcefully shove ugly things down my throat. I will be LESS SENSITIVE, LESS REACTIVE and certainly never to be affected again by pettiness that surrounds me.
After all, we are all humans (including the villains in our lives) with our own unique sentiments and thus cannot be judged by hearsay alone.
Just as I do what I do and say what I say because of personally legit reasons, other people are entitled to the same. In God's eyes, we are equally deserving of the same love.
I will let PEACE and WISDOM rule my heart (again) no matter how scarred it had been, and seek to forgive those who've caused me insurmountable heartaches.
Bless their hearts! But please bless mine too.
I will seek to be the Angel of Peace once more no matter what it takes and unafraid of what it costs me -- for love's direction not to go anywhere but prosper, and definitely for God's greater glory!
I'll focus on how good life is. And be really less reactive. Seriously. It's about time. I'm utterly disappointed with myself at how poorly I've reacted in the past, but hopefully there's a chance to recover.
I will prove that chance.
"Be Proactive".
#1 of Dr. Covey's Seven Habits of Highly Effective People. How could I have let that fizzle out? I think I'm going to adopt it for life. Re-adopt.
Remind me when I falter.
It is good.
It's all good.
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