Paranoid Much?!?!?

I've been mastering the art of being a couch potato all week.  And so yesterday, I was in a half-vegetative, half-all-headachy-from-all-that-sleepin state when I got a text message from my friend who I haven't seen for eons.  He said, "Hi Clarisse, I dreamt about you yesterday. I miss you and I hope to see you soon."  I didn't reply immediately because my brain was completely vegged out and I couldn't think of something nice and sweet to say yet (ooops, didn't I promise last Easter that I will text people back right away? uhrm...uhrm sorry but I'm really trying).


One sweet corn on the cob, a glass of iced tea and several rounds of FRIENDS reruns on DVD later, he texted again, "I really miss you.  I don't know why, maybe I'm going to die soon or something."


That left my now half-corn-stuffed, half-comatose self feeling spooked and disgruntled, yes both.  So I started typing back. No, I was too lazy for that so I decided to call instead.  It turns out, he's doing well and fine but yeah, he misses me.  We had a nice conversation catching up on the snippets of our lives that we have missed for not getting in touch --eighty percent of which is actually my fault.  Then we circled back to his message.  If something bad was bound to happen and he couldn't shake off that ugly feeling, why would he want to talk to just me. Why not hunt down his other friends as well?... Maybe it wasn't going to be him......uh oh maybe it was me!?  Darn.  He already did this to me in third grade and it took me the whole of fourth grade to get rid of such paranoid thoughts and morbid fears. Darn, again.


In the end, we just laughed it off. I don't think God will allow it anyway.  But it sure felt good knowing that someone who is possibly on his last day on earth would count me in as one of his last wishes. THAT FELT REALLY NICE.


But boy, I made him do my favorite ritual to ward off bad luck --- that is, to spin clockwise three times. We both did. That was totally retarded. Hey, I have my quirks too, okay?


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                                           INCIDENTALLY...


I want to share one of my favorite prayers to you guys. For me, it is a sure fire way of wiping out ugly thoughts and fears. The Lord is my refuge and He is always there for me, and with me no matter what. Here's the Psalm 23 for you all...




The Lord is my Shepherd;
I shall not want.

He maketh me to lie down in green pastures:
He leadeth me beside the still waters.

He restoreth my soul:
He leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for His name's sake.

Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,
I will fear no evil:
for THOU art with me;

Thy rod and Thy staff they comfort me.
Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies:

Thou anointest my head with oil;
My cup runneth over.

Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life:
And I will dwell in the house of the LORD forever.